Life: On Being a quitter

Day 1 – Morning: Routine Changes

Today is a brand new day. It began almost like any other day, but with a few minor differences. I’m not a morning person, never have been, probably never will be. This morning I woke up, hit snooze a couple times and was surprised by how awake and alert I felt. Usually this is not the case, and I need to get some caffeine and be awake an hour before I feel like I can function like a normal human being.

I didn’t change much in my regular morning routine. I showered, shaved, dressed, grabbed my 2 cups of coffee (in one giant mug) with one small spoon of sugar, threw some ice into it and took my vitamins. I put on my brand new Queen City Cherry Bombs hoodie and leather jacket. Decided on sneakers instead of boots, walked outside, hopped in my car and drove to work.

I imagine that this is a fairly standard routine for most employed adults. I made two deviations from my standard routine today. First I put on a new (and clean) hoodie, and secondly I didn’t have a cigarette before going to work. Why do I repeat and mention this? Because it means not only do I not smell like smoke right now, but I got to work nearly 15 minutes earlier than I usually do.

As it stands now its nearly 11am EST. I’ve already caught myself thinking that I should go out for a cigarette twice, and the lack of nicotine headache has already set in. For me the headache starts as a dull background fuzziness that makes it hard to focus. My body feels like its in a heightened sense of alertness, as my mind wanders from my bottom back left hand tooth to the bottom of my feet, I wonder if I am dehydrated. I commit to myself that I will drink at least 3 liters of water today. I’ll probably update this post again this afternoon or tonight.