Verse 03:4:o1

originally posted at

Open Letter to Anon

“Love. I get so lost, somtimes.” – Peter Gabrieli

There are time(s) in ones life where all one can do is to try to accept that which they do not want to accept. These times where you want to scream, and shout, and pull your hair out to make people understand what they are doing to you. I hope that those instances are far and few between for you.

Then there are the times where something happens to you and you cant but help think, so this is how so-and-so felt on subject x, or when such and such happened to them. These are the times that put things into perscpective for you and everything seems to click and you almost feel like you have seen so-and-so in a new light, and have a new perspective into their soul. I hope that these instances are numerous in your life, especially if you didnt cause so-and-so to negatively “feel that way.”

Then there are the times that you try and try to do the “right thing” even though it may not be the right thing for you at the time. IF you always try to do right by everyone else you will drive your self crazy. I hope you find a way to balance your time between yourself and others.

Then there are the times when you have to trust someone. Trust is earned. Should someone break the trust they have earned, try to remember that they are human and make mistakes. I hope that you forgive people and trust people easier than i have in this life.

Then there are the times that you will just want to be held. These times you should be extremely picky about who holds you. I hope you have someone to hold you during the hard times when all you want to do it cry.

Then there are the times that try as you might, you just cannot or do not want to go to sleep. When these times approach you I hope that you have something constructive and creative that you can do to pass the time until sleep comes

Then there are the times that you are so overflowing with joy and happiness you never want the moment to end. Remember that time is a fleeting and harsh mistress. I hope that you have the gumption to go through with these times, and hold on to them in memory with happiness.

Then there are the times that you are lost floundering in the ether of that which we call life. These times remember that its just a pond, and shore lies in every direction you take somewhere. I hope that you always have a strong sense of that which you want to do.

After all is said and done, you are indeed more then just the sum of your parts. This you will never remember, for its the hardest lesson of them all. I hope that you always have hope.

“Love… Love… Love… Love… Love is like a open hand.

Stings a little when it lands.” – Ministry

© tmib 2003jan04

late night ramblings…

Well I didnt sleep the other night. so around 10pm tonight i crashed for a few hours on the couch. And now I am back hard at work playing with CSS, HTML, Perl/CGI, PHP, etc. Giving my personal webpages some much needed facelifts, redeisgning some things here and there. (most of which no one will probably ever see.) In the process of doing this i redesigned the opening splash screen for my personal site. Now when i first started playing with HTML and noticed the differences of display with the same code on different browsers back in about 1992, I presumed that some of it was just buggy shoddy browser parsing. Here we are in two thousand and fucking four, and we still have multiple browsers displaying the same STANDARD in different ways. Its bloody annoying have to keep multiple browsers installed just so i can make sure that it looks right. And WTF is the deal with no browser offering 100% CSS implementation. Christ CSS (started in 1994) level 1 was recommended (released) in 1996, all you software vendors behind still? I mean GD. IE3 was the first browser with any CSS support at all and it came out in 1996. and Mozilla/Netscape cant bloody get it right either. You’re both fired!

Oops I ranted. Well back to page updating…